Could this be empty nest syndrome? Changes can be good but heartbreaking.
I have a lot of children but some of you may already know that I have two minor children living at home and my youngest adult son.
Joshua is two, Garrett is nine and Billy is twenty.
Today Billy told us that in eight days he will moving to another state! This is so heartbreaking for me but I am happy for him.
I have other grown children that live in other states but most of them are around other family members so I guess I don’t worry as much.
Today when Billy told his dad and I that he was going to Arkansas to live it stabbed me right in my heart.
He is going to be almost eight hours away from us and going where there is no family at all. He does know a few people there because we lived there for three years.
Arkansas is one place I never thought he would move to. Hell, to be honest, I knew someday he would move out but not to another state.
Wondering why it hurts so much.
I am happy for him but I am also scared. I try not to cry because I don’t want to hold him back for selfish reasons.
I lost one son in that state and maybe some of my fear comes from that. I left there never wanting to see that state again but I know I will if my baby stays there and makes a life there.
Watching my baby grow up and move on is killing me inside but I know this is how life goes and this is good for him. I just need to find a way to be ok with him leaving me.
I think this is Karma for me. I left my family and moved to Tennessee with my husband when our kids were very young. Now my children are growing up and they are all leaving.
Not all of the changes in life are easy but necessary. Empty nest syndrome? I wonder if this could be empty nest syndrome because he was the last child I gave birth to but not the youngest.