Today didn’t start out to good but I am sure that it was because we lost our puppy yesterday. I mentally beat myself up today. I don’t understand how I can be so mean to myself. I think all them years I had to hear him say ( You’re a stupid Bitch) has made me this way.
The day got better because Joshua doesn’t let me stay thinking about me to long. He got up on my lap and sit and I looked down at him and thought about when he was smaller. Garrett is going to 9 this year and it just doesn’t seem like it.
Tonight for dinner we had bacon cheeseburgers and corn on the cob. It was the first time Joshua had corn on the cob and this kid loved it.
The other day when I took Joshua outside he picked a flower and gave it to me.
The sun is shining daily and the kids are out playing so I am a happy momma. Now to fix them negative thoughts about myself. Maybe I will understand how people like themselves so much.
“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life, but define yourself.”
― Harvey Fierstein
“When you’re different, sometimes you don’t see the millions of people who accept you for what you are. All you notice is the person who doesn’t.”
― Jodi Picoult,