I guess I really made Satan mad so he has decided to attack. Remember how I told you all the good news about my daughter and son getting baptized? Well, we also had dedicated our toddler. So that is why I say I made Satan mad.
Yesterday my dryer went out, my toddler was terrorizing me, and I found out my dad was sick. My toddler decided it was a good day to put the puppy (Sophie) on the boy’s beds and Sophie decided to mark them by peeing on them.
My dad told me yesterday that he was having surgery on his mouth because they found a lump under his gum. He also told me that he had Jaundice. He told me after he went to the surgeon today that he would go to the doctor to get the Jaundice taken care.
Previously he had fought stomach cancer and had surgery to remove the dead cells. His scans came back clean and he seemed healthy. With his second scans, they came back that he had lung and pancreas cancer.
I told him I had faith in God and had my self-believing that it would all go away and my dad would be fine. He went to have the surgery today and the surgeon said it was cancer and refused to touch it. Cancer is spreading through his body.
Tonight before church I talk to my dad and he told me he was ok with it. This has really torn me up and I am crushed.
I have a child in Flordia and he is in the path of Hurricane Irma. I have told him and told him to leave and he just won’t do it. He says he is prepared to ride it out. I am so worried about him on top of all the other stuff.
I decided I was going to push through and go to church. Well, I did really good until prayer request. The first request that hit me hard was for a mother that lost a child to suicide, The second one was the icing on the cake and I fled the church in tears. The prayer request was for someone dealing with cancer.
I now am scared to go back and have started stressing over it already! I don’t want people feeling sorry for me or asking me questions. I feel this is Satan trying to steal something from that I so much enjoy and look forward to every week. I hope to be strong and fight Satan and the anxiety that he will throw at me.
Trying to be positive when all seems lost.
So the positive out look on my dad is that he is saved and will have eternal life and I will see him again once we are no longer living on earth.
For as the new heavens and the new earth
that I make
shall remain before me, says the LORD,
so shall your offspring and your name remain.
Well, friend, it is time for me to go. I need to go pray and let our Amazing God take all this stress and worry from me. I do hope all is well with you and your families.
God bless you all.