Not a very good morning and it just get worse! Mood Sad
Joshua woke up this morning whining and that is a challenge trying to figure out what he most times. I just want my coffee in peace but we know that is not going to happen. I get him settled down and try to drink some coffee. When I am drinking my coffee I try to start writing my 500 words for the day and that is a big NO. Joshua comes up and shuts my laptop.
I get up and start doing my morning chores and get the laundry started. A mother’s work is never over and it is a 24/7 job. Being a stay at home mom is more work than a 9 to 5 job. Then your family doesn’t appreciate it. They don’t think about how they’re fed every day, have clean clothes, and a clean house.
While I am cleaning, my mind decides it going to think about everything at once. I start thinking about John, my blog when I am going to get my camera I ordered, and worst of all I start thinking negative about myself. I know I am a good person but I guess I will always have them effects of negative thoughts thanks to my ex-husband. Every day for about 4 years he told me nobody would want me and I was called a stupid bitch every day for them 4 years. I wish I could overcome that for good. I proved him wrong, I have been married for 21 years to a wonderful man.
Bill takes us out to dinner and when we get home we found our puppy had been hit by a car. We have a fence but he was constantly finding new ways out. Joshua saw him and cried for a good 30 minutes to an hour for him. Joshua and Dunken were best friends. Every night they ran through the house and played. Finally, I could not take it anymore so we went to visit my cousin and this got his mind of Dunken. I really hope that Joshua is too small for this to effect him. I know some may think it is just a puppy but he was not just a puppy, he was Joshua’s best friend. I am glad I have video’s of them on YouTube.
I am glad it is time for bed. I am so done with today and to exhausted from the crappy day it turned out to be.